[Training] know how to resurrect

i am afraid that if i open myself

i will not stop pouring

She does know that he doesn’t mind, but she feels better asking anyway. Already, she feels a bit like a burden, brought back to a completely different life, a different change, where those around her had to change how they spoke to her, had to change how they did things with her because she wasn’t the same. But it’s a feeling she tries to stifle down again and again, never wishing to air in the open. Never wanting to give it a fraction of light in her thoughts.

So instead, she lowers her bow and steps over to collect her arrows, fitting them back into the quiver, and returning to Deimos by the time that he’s crafted the amulet from a glimmering orb between his hands. Eventually, as she watches, she notices the ivory amulet paired with a string to attach it around her neck, her mind flickering over the idea of what it could be filled with. Many things come to mind, but it isn’t until Deimos is asking that it becomes harder.

She doesn’t meet his face, her eyes focused on the amulet as she considers. Fire, she wants to say, knowing that it was beneficial to attempting to harm the monsters. And yet? “Ice.” Falls from her lips in a breathless whisper. Something that could hopefully still damage without actually causing pain to her or those around her. She had to come home this time.

She has to.

why do i fear becoming a river?

what mountain gave me such shame?

KIADA