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His eyebrows creased and a frown formed on his lips as Oliver began to think. His foot tapped anxiously as he tried to mull over everything he had ever said or thought since coming here...which wasn't much, really. He'd barely even been here for an entire season. "I mean...I think everyone makes bad assumptions. It's something we do without realizing it...some people simply let it get to their heads. Like, I don't know. I know people get so mad at me for assuming stuff and they yell at me and make me feel so inferior. That's totally how you'll get me into wanting to learn more." He could reflect back on particular conversations. Remi and Sunjata were not rude to him when he asked questions or made particular assumptions about the world they lived in, nor had a couple of other individuals. Those people were nice to him and explained themselves. Others, however, made Oliver feel bad. They got upset with him and accused him of making horrible statements. "I don't know. I do think I make a ton of mistakes, I'll admit that, but I don't like being accused of stuff or belittled. Help me learn, don't make me feel stupid." His voice was shar as though he were annoyed by this sentiment. All Oliver wanted was to feel respected, like it was safe for him to ask questions and to learn from them. However, the more people got upset with him, the more wary he was of even speaking up in the first place. Despite Jigano trying to reassure Oliver that Ludo had only taken memories once, Oliver still remembered his conversation. "Okay...this is a time where I made a bad assumption. I have learned that I was wrong...but I was talking with Phoebe and I said that I wanted to go see Ludo about regaining my memories...because there wasn't anything left for me to lose. Phoebe said I shouldn't take it lightly and Ludo could just as easily take away the little memories I have earned here or make me be incapable of remembering anything...that Ludo is tricky." Oliver looked away, incapable of looking Jigano in the eyes in this moment. He was filled with embarrassment, realizing he had messed up yet again. Then...a thought dawned on him. "Could I give up my magic to become attuned? Give up any magic I ever had...surely, they'd be able to grant that." OLIVER i saw that my life was a vast glowing empty page and i could do anything i wanted