did goodbye mean letting go?
His hands in her hair are a comfort she’d know deaf and blind. He always starts a particular way, and his fingers never tangle or pull, even when her hair is knotted from the - no. Not thinking about it. She just wants to keep her eyes closed and feel the way his magic touches her skin, the way he directs the water to cleanse her.
It’s perhaps the most intimate moment she has ever known, and it helps the raw and bleeding edges of her insides dull and clot together, keeping her from falling apart with the gentle force of his attentiveness. His love.
She feels him press a kiss into her hair, and his voice feels like it’s all around her as heat builds behind her eyelids and her shoulders begin to shake in tiny, spasming motions. Still trying even now to exert as much control over her own destruction as possible. I’m not. It comes out the same way one might say ‘I’m fine’. Stubborn, but undeniably false. She doesn’t regret killing George. She regrets having fallen for his charade of kindness.
That’s all this is. Betrayal. And she can’t let herself feel anything else - even if she can’t stop herself from trembling and beginning to cry in quiet, hiccuping sobs against Sunjata’s chest.
It’s perhaps the most intimate moment she has ever known, and it helps the raw and bleeding edges of her insides dull and clot together, keeping her from falling apart with the gentle force of his attentiveness. His love.
She feels him press a kiss into her hair, and his voice feels like it’s all around her as heat builds behind her eyelids and her shoulders begin to shake in tiny, spasming motions. Still trying even now to exert as much control over her own destruction as possible. I’m not. It comes out the same way one might say ‘I’m fine’. Stubborn, but undeniably false. She doesn’t regret killing George. She regrets having fallen for his charade of kindness.
That’s all this is. Betrayal. And she can’t let herself feel anything else - even if she can’t stop herself from trembling and beginning to cry in quiet, hiccuping sobs against Sunjata’s chest.
and did letting go mean forever?
HOTARU
