Hotaru
I know that I should have told you that I would die
Just to hold you
There is no need to conceal it, Hotaru is quite happy to see Alys so self-confident and pleased with herself. She entirely deserves it. Though Ru may be worldly and wise, the years of hurt and bad decisions easily blind her to the change she needs to enact upon herself. She would never disregard any advice Alys gave her, even if she ever chose not to take it. Just to hold you
"Exactly. I'll be at the House of Midnight - Sunjata's brothel. All necessities should be taken care of." Not that it would stop her from longing for the world beyond. Between her own power and Sunjata's perhaps she would not need to deny the call. Maybe they could even go flying? Hotaru notes it down on her paper, smiling slightly to herself. 'Freedom' may have most rolling their eyes when presented as something a person could not live without, but Hotaru has so often had hers stolen that she thinks it deserves to be written down.
Noting immediately the way Alys' mood dips, Ru frowns slightly and puts her pencil in the inner spine of her notebook, closing it and giving her friend her full attention. "Have you been feeling that way lately?" She doesn't want to assume, but her gut feeling is rarely wrong. Reading people had been a necessary skill for her as a thief and informant, now it merely helps her navigate moments like these. "I'm sorry I've been gone so much. Admittedly, I've felt...torn. It feels like I'm being pulled three ways." Her eyes leave Alys to look out over the vague foggy terrain before them. Perhaps it's unfair to make this about herself once again, but it's the best explanation she has. "My only surviving child is in Torchline, my lover is in King's End and forbidden from Halo, and my friends and Academy are here. My wings can't carry me fast enough to do right by everyone, much less myself." Because, for as intoxicating and all-consuming as Sunjata is, Hotaru does not magically stop missing her friends either just because he is back at her side. Turning back to Alys, she regards her seriously. "I'm sorry if my absence has caused any feelings like that."
And if I just had my shit together I could be with you
But I'm too high on paranoia
But I'm too high on paranoia
