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Sohalia

Don't try to wake me up
Even if the sun really does come out tomorrow

How was she supposed to explain that it wasn't just about the training accident, though? It was about relationships crumbling where she wished they hadn't, wondering how she could feel things for two people at once, agonizing over whether that was okay or if it made her a selfish person, fearing that if Jude knew he would leave her... it was everything she didn't know how to put into words but desperately wanted to, if only to get the secrets off her chest. It was times like this that she almost wished she could separate Jude the boyfriend from Jude the best friend so that she could get his advice without fear of losing him.

She chuckled weakly at the thought of Harper panicking over Jude breaking a finger; but although she could envision just that situation, she was distracted - over Jude, over Koa, over everything that had happened to her over the summer - and it took a moment for Jude's question to register. And when it did, her eyes grew round as she looked at her boyfriend, stricken with the realization that, without really meaning to, she'd never told him about her attack and its aftermath.

"Oh..." she said, her voice trailing off as Jude locked up behind them, swallowing hard as, suddenly, everything from that night came rushing back. "I... back at the beginning of Longheat, I was... attacked," she said, her voice distant and small in her ears. "I went to Harper after. I couldn't - I didn't want to stay here alone."

Don't believe anything you say anymore
In the morn, in the morning