Sohalia
And I could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack
All around the world was waking, I never could go back
All around the world was waking, I never could go back
Somehow Soh felt even worse, as though she were hiding something, and even though it was only two dates, it had felt like so much more than that. While she didn't regret her choice - she may have really liked Koa, but she loved Jude - she still felt as though she were caught between a rock and a hard place. She just couldn't see how she could have done anything any differently, and now she was stuck on whether she should say more or leave things alone. What if she made Jude feel like he wasn't enough? Or like she'd made a wrong decision? Or any number of other things that she would never wish to hurt him with? But then, they'd always been honest with one another, and while she had shared the truth with him, it wasn't the whole truth.
"No, I'm sorry -" she said, reaching up to touch her fingertips to his cheek. "I feel bad, too. Honestly... I really liked him, too, but then - well, there was never any competition between you," she said with a rueful smile. "I liked Koa, but I love you. But it didn't exactly go well, when I broke it off. He asked me to go out with him, like, exclusively, and then I had to tell him I was seeing someone else. I should have said something sooner, I just - I wasn't here, and I felt like I had to talk to him in person, and it just - didn't go as planned."
If Soh could take back anything at this moment, it would be how things had gone between her and Koa, how she'd handled the breakup (?). Maybe, if she'd just done things differently... but it was done now, and there was no turning back.
Her leadership, too, was a giant question mark in her mind, and she flushed as Jude agreed that she had made a major decision without his input. In hindsight, it was as clear as day, but at the time, it had seemed like the only thing to do. She bit the inside of her cheek to keep tears from welling in her eyes, distressed all over again at how she'd upended their lives, and for what? For a position she didn't even want? "Thank you," she whispered. "For being so understanding. For what it's worth, I think I can confidently say I won't do something like this again."
"No, I'm sorry -" she said, reaching up to touch her fingertips to his cheek. "I feel bad, too. Honestly... I really liked him, too, but then - well, there was never any competition between you," she said with a rueful smile. "I liked Koa, but I love you. But it didn't exactly go well, when I broke it off. He asked me to go out with him, like, exclusively, and then I had to tell him I was seeing someone else. I should have said something sooner, I just - I wasn't here, and I felt like I had to talk to him in person, and it just - didn't go as planned."
If Soh could take back anything at this moment, it would be how things had gone between her and Koa, how she'd handled the breakup (?). Maybe, if she'd just done things differently... but it was done now, and there was no turning back.
Her leadership, too, was a giant question mark in her mind, and she flushed as Jude agreed that she had made a major decision without his input. In hindsight, it was as clear as day, but at the time, it had seemed like the only thing to do. She bit the inside of her cheek to keep tears from welling in her eyes, distressed all over again at how she'd upended their lives, and for what? For a position she didn't even want? "Thank you," she whispered. "For being so understanding. For what it's worth, I think I can confidently say I won't do something like this again."
Cause all the walls of dreaming, they were torn wide open
And finally it seemed that the spell was broken
And finally it seemed that the spell was broken
Minor powerplay allowed without permission.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
